The impossibilities of being in love.

I'm not even sure if the title makes sense, but I don't really care, it sounds good. I've made my blog look all pretty so now I am happy.
I guess now I'm going to talk about the sensitive topic of being in love. If you know what being in love feels like then you'll know what I'm going on about. If you don't, basically, it's amazingly exciting, and completely crap. Being me, I can't even smile at him, let alone talk to him, even though I used to be friends with him before the whole love thing started. I can't talk about anything else, I can't think about anything else, and I want him to love me back so badly. Sure, some people will say, you're way too young for love, maybe I am. Doesn't mean I can't just stop falling in love with someone. My friends don't particularly like him, they think he's a nerd. But to be honest, was I going to fall in love with anybody else? No. Considering I am a bit of a nerd myself. And I know at the moment you're probably thinking, ohhh huge glasses, lots of spots, greasy hair. You couldn't be more wrong. I might as well describe him to you now, he's blonde and quite tall, he's got CLEAN hair, and he doesn't have glasses.
The thing is, when I was in year seven, (if you don't know what that is, it's when I was eleven to twelve) him and I used to be enemies, but we had kind of a love-hate relationship. We pretended to hate each other, but we didn't actually hate each other. He probably doesn't even remember this. Anyway, this is when my feelings for him began, I wrote an email to "Ask Esther" in the kids newspaper, 'FirstNews', and she answered. I told her that I liked a boy in my maths class, and that I didn't know what to do. But when you're in year seven, you don't really know what these strange new feelings are, let alone how to act on them. I can't remember what she replied, but there's the proof that I liked him even back all those billions of years ago.
So basically, if you think you're in love for the first time when you are around the age of fifteen, chances are that you are in love. It's just a new thing. Likelihood is that you won't stay with the person forever. But there's a quote in one of my favourite moves, "The Art of Getting By", where one of the character's says, "When you feel something, you have to act on it. If you throw her up against the wall and start kissing her, chances are she'll kiss you back. If she doesn't, at least you tried." I wish I had the guts to do this. Apart from he's a boy, but still. You get my drift. Anyway, if you are in love, I hope you have the courage to act on it, unlike what I'm doing, which is being an idiot basically. It's never too late.

I guess this is an introduction...

Looks like I've naively decided to start a blog. Usually I start these things and never actually go on them. I think I probably have about eight different blogs now. I'll try to keep this one up though. I'm not going to tell you my name, because I want this blog to my anonymous. You'll never know who I am, but you'll know all about my life. That's the way it's going to be. Basically, I am a teenage girl, I'm fifteen. Forever alone, and a wallflower. Some popular girls like to say they're different from everyone else, but the thing is, I actually am. It's like the time when all the "boho" and "hipster" girls dip dyed their hair different colours to be "unique" and "different". Honey, that's the different, that's following the crowd. Anyway, I'm rambling. I should probably tell you a little bit about me. I've been bullied 4 times in my life, my grandad died of cancer less than a year ago, my other grandad doesn't know who I am because of his dementia, I usually tend to mess up everything because I'm stupid, I've got a huge nose that people make fun of, I don't like my friendship group because they aren't very nice to me. Other than that, my life is absolutely spiffing. Oh, and I had depression for like two years, but I'm okay now.
I like reading, I'll probably talk about reading a lot on this blog, my favourite book is The Hunger Games. And my favourite series are the Harry Potter's, obviously. I'm going to LeakyCon 2013 in London which I'm excited about.
Also, I rant a lot about bullying and cancer, ranty rant rant.
Oh, and I'm addicted to Twitter.
Bai.